Milestones & To Do List

I've managed to reach 5000+ hits recently (discounting ones that were just me). Considering I don't make the effort to expand readership of this thing, that's something.

Things have been going relatively well for me lately. Therapy is going on nicely, I feel like I've been making progress. Still loads I want to sort out. Employment, housing, social life, getting in shape. Kind of want to bulk up to more of a 'muscle bear' body type (like the porn star Paul Wagner) but I don't know if I have the patience or discipline, might make do with being a bit more muscular and a bit leaner. Getting in shape especially is one I want to focus on, now I'm feeling better in myself. Some of it is health and general benefits that being fitter would bring, but I'm not going to lie. A lot of it is down to sex. Look better, be able to last longer and be physically stronger.

Some guy I was chatting to started talking about fisting. I don't want to be on the receiving end, and am not really sure I'd like to do it to someone. But I did think about what I would like to do (with video examples):

Bulge worship
I remember seeing a few videos where one guy was made to crawl on all fours, and had his face pushed into the clothed crotches of a group of men. While I don't care much for being made to crawl, I do like the 'worship' aspect.


Being talked dirty to
While I've had guys say the odd line now and then, I'd like to try it where they are a lot more commanding and dominant. Being told what to do, what's going to happen, that kind of thing. If they have a nice voice, that's a bonus. I'm a sucker for a nice voice.


Public cruising
I guess it's the spontaneous nature of this that sounds appealing, being outdoors and not knowing who will turn up. Which could be good or could be awful (don't think the guy in the video cares much about that). The guys at 8 minutes in who start feeling each other was another thing I liked.


The first two are easy enough to do, just find a guy and nuzzle his cock/get him to be a bit bossy. Cruising is slightly harder because I'm still not sure where you'd go (except one place that I've heard a bunch of stories about where men have been attacked), and it's a lot more unpredictable. Unless, I suppose, you went with someone and then started messing around with each other in public and let others walk by and maybe join in.

Still in my no-sex period until I'm done with this HPV treatment, so it's something for the future.