Last Day

Just finished putting the final (possibly) application of the wart cream on. I have an appointment to go back to the clinic on Thursday (stupidly I accepted the first offer and have to be there at 9am—not a good time for someone who has trouble maintaining a regular sleep routine). 

The cream has worked well. The two major areas, the large growth on the head of the penis and the stripe on the foreskin, have decreased in size. The stripe less so, but there is still time. Learnt a few things. I thought warts were solid and smooth, rather than squiggly and sponge-like. Putting the cream on with a cotton bud/q-tip makes it easier to pin point where the cream goes (then I have to roll my foreskin back over it and it ends up spreading anyway). The government are tossers for not approving HPV vaccines for men, even just men who don't have sexual contact with women and thus don't get whatever magical benefit is supposed to arise from that. I might not get cervical cancer from having this, but it's been like 6 months of pain and irritation. 

Now that the warts have reduced in size, freezing them might be an option again. It's mean to be better for smaller warts, and it is only mildly uncomfortable for a short while. Unlike the cream that causes painful immune reactions on any healthy skin it touches, and happens to be touching some of the most sensitive skin on my body. I welcome getting my crotch frozen at this point. 

Have a sex drive again too, which was lacking before. It's not exactly been great having it back. I should have learnt another thing, that wanking might feel nice now but just leads to pain afterwards. But its return is good for other reasons (not being too depressed to have an interest in sex, etc.) even if I'm not quite ready to do anything about it. 

Not ready, but I would like to. I could probably work something out. One of those "you don't touch me, I just suck you off" deals where I get to keep my clothes on. Getting fucked while mostly dressed with the top not messing around with my junk. I would settle for making out and over-the-clothes petting and groping (and maybe some of the first idea). I just wouldn't want to get into explanations about why my clothes are staying on. 

But if someone is offering to suck your dick without anything in return, are there going to be that many men who push the issue? It was my understanding that men generally liked that arrangement. 

(While I haven't been the biggest fan of receiving oral so far in my life, I wouldn't mind that as long as I got to kiss as well. But that's basically my stance for anything remotely sexual, and even not very sexual. I just like making out and I miss it after half a year without.)