This 'getting back on the horse' thing is kind of turning into more trouble that it's possibly worth.
Not to say I've not had much luck or anything. The opposite, really. A bit too much luck. I met up with two guys yesterday for coffee/a drink. Meeting someone else on Saturday. I've got someone else who wants to meet up in a couple of weeks (can't make it the next two). Others who might be interested. Some how sound really interested.
But then there is the guy I'm going to see tomorrow. If I've wrote about letting people lead me into things I might not wanted to have done or been interested in, this guy is a good example of that. He wants me not to wash my cock for him, because he gets off on that. Which is not something I like much. Wants to be pissed on. Again, not my cup of tea. Wanted to fuck me raw, which I have said I'm not up for. But I still have the anxiety that he's going to try his luck anyway. I'm not too keen on the whole meeting now, honestly. For one the weather is really bad here and there doesn't seem to be much in the way of transport links to where he lives (a place I've never been to and don't know at all). Getting back home might be a real hassle, I am wishing I had gone with the other guy who wanted to meet tomorrow now since he's in an easily accessed location. Don't know if he'd want to fuck bareback as well. I need to get into the habit/grow the spine to ask this question straight out. (I was planning on asking directly if he was planning on using a condom, but he got there first by answering my question about what he wanted to do with 'fucking [me] raw'.) There is a lot of snow forecast for tomorrow, so I'm hoping it's a good excuse to cancel.
Then there is another guy, who I don't have definite plans to meet up with yet. He's got a thing about kidnapping roleplay. While not quite to the level of Friday's guy, it's more things that I don't really have an interest in. But I play along for him. And I don't know how to feel about this. About doing all these things I don't care about for people I don't know well. Is this a problem, something I should try to change?
Dude, if you don't kick yourself in the ass, I will. I can't speak for everyone, but for fuck sakes, no one is a mind reader. Tell your (potential) partners what you want, and what you don't want! Yes, it really is THAT easy!
ReplyDeleteAnd don't meet anyone you don't want to meet, for what ever reason you want. If you don't want to go to a strange area, it's okay! If you think you'll have trouble getting home, for fuck sakes don't put yourself in that position.
Anyone who has ever done the online hook up thing to any degree, is used to a fair amount of rejection, so don't feel like you have to accommodation every request.
You seem like a nice kid, but yah, in your own words "grow the spine to ask this question straight out."