Back on the Horse

Abstinence in both senses (not masturbating and not watching porn) ended about two days ago. But I found I was fine with not watching porn, and don't particularly miss it. But the odd days where the frustration of not having sex, it served its purpose. Though the result of that is just making me want to sleep with someone more.

So I've found myself on Scruff. I think I downloaded the tablet version ages ago but didn't make use of it since I figured the main boon of these apps is finding people when you're out and about. But after having a look around, I decided to make a profile. Compared with my experience on Grindr, I have gotten a better response on Scruff. Maybe the fact I have a picture showing my full face this time helps, I don't know. I guess I'd have to test out Grindr with the same photo and see. Though honestly, I like the type of men on Scruff more. I've got a thing for bear types.

I've not exactly been swamped under with messages or anything, but I'm enjoying what I'm getting so far. Didn't really consider this when I signed up, but since it's around Christmas there are a few people from out of town visiting and probably some who live here off visiting other towns and cities. I guess once the New Year is over and everyone is back home, I'll have a better idea of who's on normally.

I've found I've been a bit more daring and forward with Scruff. I like pressing that little 'Woof' button, even if I don't have the chance of meeting up with them. It's just a non-verbal way of telling someone they're hot, and I've got a couple of messages back from doing so. Earlier this evening I was trading pictures and banter with a guy and found it felt a lot easier and smoother than it might have a year or two ago. I can't accommodate and given the season not all the guys can either, so it's not lead to meeting up with anyone yet but if the opportunity was there it could happen. Really makes me want to get my own place soon (as if I didn't already).

As well as chatting with new guys, I've found a couple I'd spoken to before but didn't get to meet. One guy seemed pretty keen although he didn't remember us talking before. And there's J.C., who is the same as ever. If I'm more comfortable having sexually-charged then he's probably the reason. Had the most practice with him than anyone else.

About a week ago I was ready to become a hermit, I was in such a bad mood after a really bad experience on a night out. But now I'm feeling more upbeat.

But if you'll excuse me, I'm going to end this here. Some guy has sent me a picture of his cock and I want to try to work out a plan to get that inside me one way/hole or another.